This block we are learning learn about genitalia.  Exciting, no?  This week in particular we started to talk about the female reproductive system…you know…ovaries…vagina…all that fun stuff.  Ironically, this week I also attended a panel of doctors who were discussing “Balancing a Family and a Career in Medicine.”  And, of course, four more of my friends announced that they’re pregnant on Facebook.

From what I can conclude, there is no good time for a doctor to have a baby.  Not in med school….not in residency…NEVER as an intern…and not even as an attending.

Oh, universe!  Why art thou so cruel!?

I hate this aspect of being a doctor; it’s not exactly easy to balance with having a family.  It was the one thing I struggled with most about deciding to go to medical school (even more than blood draw lab!).  I would really like to have a baby….more than anything.  And alllll of my friends have already started to have them.  Some of my friends are even on round two or three of having kids.

I don’t want to wait until my ovaries are shriveled up and only the weird eggs are left.  But I also just don’t have time to raise a baby right now.  I can’t even imagine how hard it would be to go to school and come home to a baby.  But, at some point, something’s gotta give.

I’ve heard way too many stories of doctors who waited until the time was just right, and then they found out it was too late.  I want to be a mom, and I want to have a big family.  And that definitely takes priority over being a doctor.  Maybe I’m naive, but I do think that I can have it all.

And let me just say, I am going to be a great doctor and a great mom.  My friends in med school already call me “mom.”  Ironically, so did my friends in college.  Sometimes it feels like it’s going to be forever before I actually get to be a mom, but I try to remember to live in the present.  Right now, school is my priority.  Having a baby is still a few years off, but not that many…