I think that Christmas break might be one of the worst ideas ever in medical school. Sure, I loved going home and seeing my family. I had the best time ever! But then…I had to come back to “reality.” Back to 6-8 hours of studying a day. Back to hour after hour of boring lectures about blood flow and cytokines. Back to afternoons spent toiling away in the anatomy lab, only to find out, you’re not done with your dissection, and you get to continue to work on it.
Needless to say, I’ve had a tough time settling back in to my med school schedule. It almost makes me wish that they would never let us leave. Just keep us here. Sure, we’ll be miserable, but at least we might just forget that that’s not how it always is. Christmas break just let me catch up on everything that is going on in the world and made me remember that I ever had a life outside of med school.
During Christmas break, my biggest worry was what kind of delicious treat to eat next or which board game to beat my relatives at. And now, I’m just trying to keep my head above water.
It doesn’t help that I’m in the middle of one of the toughest blocks in one of the toughest quarters of medical school. I mean, why on earth would you put a two-week break in the middle of it!? It’s torture!
Now, I know you probably don’t care, and why should you? It’s not your problem. But it is mine, and it really sucks. I try to remind myself everyday that I wanted this, and I am lucky to be in med school, but it really isn’t much of a consolation. I’m just counting down the days until our next break…it can’t come soon enough…