As much as I love learning, I am starting to get sick of school.  Like, REALLY sick of school.  As hard as it is to believe, there comes a point in time when studying all day everyday gets old.  And that time is now.

The worst part is that now is also the time when I have the most studying to do.  I have more classes each day, and I have a lot of boards studying to do, so my lack of motivation is really taking its toll.

Plus I have an infinite list of things to do before we move to Arizona and have a baby.  I am trying to do things one at a time, and I have an order in which things need to be decided and figured out.  And I get really stressed out when someone wants to me to decide #159 on my list.

So I guess to make a long story short, I am a little overwhelmed.  I know that I’m not the only med student who is overwhelmed right now, but there is something about being pregnant AND a med student that amplifies everything.  It is just a very lonely place to be.  There aren’t exactly a lot of other pregnant med students around.  Actually, there aren’t any…besides me.  And the bigger my belly gets, the more I feel like I stand out.

I would give anything to have one friend in the exact same boat as me.  I get a lot of advice now that I’m pregnant, and I do appreciate it.  But the fact is, nobody that I know has been in my situation.  And it is a very unique situation to be in.

It was really comforting when I talked with one of my female professors the other day, only to find out that she had a baby during her third year, too.  She told me that third year was the best year to have a baby.  It was nice to be reminded that other people have been where I am, and they managed to make it through.

In just the last few days I have started to feel my baby kicking, which is really amazing, and with each little kick I am reminded that everything is going to be okay.  In one week we get to find out if Baby Howie is a boy or a girl, and I am REALLY looking forward to that.  17 weeks and counting!