As much as I love learning, I am starting to get sick of school. Like, REALLY sick of school. As hard as it is to believe, there comes a point in time when studying all day everyday gets old. And that time is now.
The worst part is that now is also the time when I have the most studying to do. I have more classes each day, and I have a lot of boards studying to do, so my lack of motivation is really taking its toll.
Plus I have an infinite list of things to do before we move to Arizona and have a baby. I am trying to do things one at a time, and I have an order in which things need to be decided and figured out. And I get really stressed out when someone wants to me to decide #159 on my list.
So I guess to make a long story short, I am a little overwhelmed. I know that I’m not the only med student who is overwhelmed right now, but there is something about being pregnant AND a med student that amplifies everything. It is just a very lonely place to be. There aren’t exactly a lot of other pregnant med students around. Actually, there aren’t any…besides me. And the bigger my belly gets, the more I feel like I stand out.
I would give anything to have one friend in the exact same boat as me. I get a lot of advice now that I’m pregnant, and I do appreciate it. But the fact is, nobody that I know has been in my situation. And it is a very unique situation to be in.
It was really comforting when I talked with one of my female professors the other day, only to find out that she had a baby during her third year, too. She told me that third year was the best year to have a baby. It was nice to be reminded that other people have been where I am, and they managed to make it through.
In just the last few days I have started to feel my baby kicking, which is really amazing, and with each little kick I am reminded that everything is going to be okay. In one week we get to find out if Baby Howie is a boy or a girl, and I am REALLY looking forward to that. 17 weeks and counting!
Love you Emily! Praying for you 3 frequently every day. Karen
Feeling baby kicking is awesome – I still remember that experience like it was yesterday! And – like Karen says, you have our prayers for you, every step of the way.
You are not alone! I’m the only one pregnant in my class too (20 weeks), and it does feel pretty isolating. Hang in there!
Ah! Wow, I can’t imagine doing medical school while being pregnant. That is amazing. I’m looking forward to seeing how you manage it all and picking up tips/tricks from you along the way. 🙂
Please post more about how you juggle family and medical school! I’m really interested in knowing how people do it.